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Saturday 1 October 2011

Birthdays from afar

I always have mixed feelings on birthdays. In my toilet hangs a birthday calender which reminds me daily who's birthday it is. Today is Jen's birthday and yesterday was Jazmyn's(Jen's daughter.)Happy Birthday girlies :-)
Old family pic...Mums 60th
I often find myself pondering about what I would do if I lived closer to the family member who's birthday it is. Would I drop by for tea? Would there be a kids party I could go and help at? Would I make a cake? What would I buy them? How fun it would be to treat them to a day at the spa, just girls, just sisters.... Would we all celebrate as a family, everyone together. Flowery flags, garden tea parties, kids running around noisily and teenagers chilling in the sunshine.
What would it look like to live closer to my siblings, and their families on birthdays? I may never know and its maybe just a dream...I am in my corner of the world and they in theirs.
I can count on my hands how many times I have sent a birthday package to my nieces and nephews or my own siblings for that matter... I guess I just resigned myself to the fact, early on, that trying to keep that up was too much of an expense. Sad really because in my heart I send something every birthday and I spend time thinking of that person on their birthday. But i don't pretend to like it and realize that I do spend time regretting it.
I am thankful for my Bos family here in Holland I get to party with on occasion. Love them :-)